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Thursday, December 16, 2010.
I really feel stupid, being in a class of students with Grade Point Average not less than 3. I can't possibly catch up. The main cause of my low GPA is because I am superrr lazy and I don't like my course at all, as a matter of fact, I hate it. I am beginning to think leaving ITE was a terrible idea. It was my life, and I enjoyed going to school. I had a plan, but I was too reckless to stick to it and now, I am facing my own music.

And to those who have been reading my blog, I purposely stopped blogging just so people won't read my blog anymore and I can have this blog to myself. There are a lot of busybodies out there and I decided a long time ago I wanted to make my life private.

Ouh, my love life.. HHMMM.
I am literally a mess right now. I am in love with someone who isn't in love with me because I made a stupid decision 8 months ago and lost him completely. Now he won't talk to me at all. And I think I am pretty stupid settling for second best. The problem is I can't let go of the past and I keep going back even though I know it's not the best choice, or the worst. And I keep letting the good eggs go because I was always afraid I might not be as happy, not that I was happy though. Don't get me wrong. I love my boyfriend and never had intentions of cheating on him or something like that. It just happened. I didn't ask for all that to happen either nor did I ask to fall in love with someone whom my family would disagree me being with and whom constantly left me heartbroken thoughout the years. And I wasn't cheating. It was only when I broke up with my boyfriend, FOR AWHILE, that I fell in love with someone else, and I knew he was very much in love with me too. But I had to hurt him because I was too afraid to take a chance. Soo... Once again, I made a stupid decision to follow my mind and not my heart. It's too late now to be regretting or try to do something about it. It has been months. Oh well, I guess I had to learn that lesson. Thank god I still have my lovely family and friends to fall back on everytime.

Good night. I hope no one is reading this.