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Saturday, February 23, 2008.
I don't even know how i should feel right now, whether to feel extremely happy or extremely sad. Ouh I'm having butterflies in my stomach right now. Ouh God, ouh God. Someone please wake me up from this nightmare! I have just accepted the course which was given to me (business administration at ITE Bishan) a few moments ago. I seriously do not know if I have made the right choice, but to chase after my dreams, I have to choose the long route because the short route didn't work. Being stuck with 27 points and having only 4 credits, I know for sure I could not even enter Poly. Ouh, did I cry like hell.
Even if I could appeal, I know I would not get the course I want which is Hospitality and Tourism management. The cut-off point for that course is 12 points at TP, in case you are wondering. YEAH, I know what's on your mind, idiot!
I have diappointed so many, especially my family. The reason why I chose to enter higher nitec instead of retaking my O's is because if I were to graduate this course with a GPA of 3.5 and above, I can enter almost every business course I want in TP. Which means, I can take up Hospitality and Tourism Management.
I know if I were to retake my O's, it'll be a total waste of time because I know I wouldn't possibly jump form 27 points to 10 points. You see the gap there? YEAH. But, I'm having doubts.
Firstly, I am most afraid of the influence I will get myself into. I don't know how the influence will be like, but all i know is that i am easily influenced.
Secondly, the thought of going to ITE and watch my friends go into poly really pains me, ALOT, because they only have to study for three years, and i will have to study for 5 years. That is if I can get into poly eventually. I HOPE SO.
Lastly, I have never thought that I would end up in ITE instead of Poly. When I received my results, reality came crashing down on me, breaking me into pieces. I could hardly believe what I saw in my slip, and the worst thing was that I wasn't even prepared for it. Damn it!
But I'm trying very very hard to look on the positive side. Maybe God gave me this route to make me learn from my mistakes, and He knew that if I did slightly better, I would have chosen Poly and went into some shitty course which I don't like, and I won't be studying either. I'm thankful that I still get to enter higher nitec instead of nitec. That would be such a loooong route.
And I would like to thank my friends, especially Wei Qing, who has helped me alottt in my studies, to my tuition teacher and school teachers, and not forgetting my family for giving me support all these while. I love you all. I will try my best to study harder and not spend too much time with friends and BF anymore. hehe. =D
Firstly, I am most afraid of the influence I will get myself into. I don't know how the influence will be like, but all i know is that i am easily influenced.
Secondly, the thought of going to ITE and watch my friends go into poly really pains me, ALOT, because they only have to study for three years, and i will have to study for 5 years. That is if I can get into poly eventually. I HOPE SO.
Lastly, I have never thought that I would end up in ITE instead of Poly. When I received my results, reality came crashing down on me, breaking me into pieces. I could hardly believe what I saw in my slip, and the worst thing was that I wasn't even prepared for it. Damn it!
But I'm trying very very hard to look on the positive side. Maybe God gave me this route to make me learn from my mistakes, and He knew that if I did slightly better, I would have chosen Poly and went into some shitty course which I don't like, and I won't be studying either. I'm thankful that I still get to enter higher nitec instead of nitec. That would be such a loooong route.
And I would like to thank my friends, especially Wei Qing, who has helped me alottt in my studies, to my tuition teacher and school teachers, and not forgetting my family for giving me support all these while. I love you all. I will try my best to study harder and not spend too much time with friends and BF anymore. hehe. =D
