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Sunday, April 08, 2007.
have u ever been in a position whereby u told a person u just wanted to be frens but u cant see them with someone else?
my guy; he makes me happy, hes changed into a better guy, noes how to treat me rite and everything but i was gettin used to someone else i cant seem to love him the wae i did last tyme.
yes, i do love him.
but it can never be as strong or as powerful as last tyme.
all the pain i went thru for the first 10 months wid him was enough.
now, when he starts appreciating me and everything, y cant i give all that back to him?
i takes two hands to clap, but im reluctant.
all i wanna do is run away and be alone.
im thinkin abt you rite now. abt the tymes when everything seemed perfect and no one was in the picture except us.
i wish i could tell you how i feel but i dun wanna spoil this friendship.
i was trapped between two souls whom i didn't wanna hurt.
the decision i made, it had already hurt someone.
i chose him because i noe he'll be more hurt den u are.
but now, seeing you happy, hearin u talk about other gerls makes me wanna shout at ur face to shut the hell up.
i dun wanna hear any of them. its hurtin badly.
i cried yesterdae. i dunno y.
i guess its because i noe im losing you. coz i realised u dun have the same feelings like it was a month back. i noe u have moved on.
well, i deserve it. i already made this decision so why am i falling now?
i want the old tymes back.
i want everything back. but i noe it will never be the same.
i have to accept the fact.i guess bein frens wid u is better than losing u completely.
i hope you will find the perfect gerl soon enough and be happy.
i want the best of you. u deserve so much more...
good luck!
