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Thursday, December 16, 2010.
I really feel stupid, being in a class of students with Grade Point Average not less than 3. I can't possibly catch up. The main cause of my low GPA is because I am superrr lazy and I don't like my course at all, as a matter of fact, I hate it. I am beginning to think leaving ITE was a terrible idea. It was my life, and I enjoyed going to school. I had a plan, but I was too reckless to stick to it and now, I am facing my own music.

And to those who have been reading my blog, I purposely stopped blogging just so people won't read my blog anymore and I can have this blog to myself. There are a lot of busybodies out there and I decided a long time ago I wanted to make my life private.

Ouh, my love life.. HHMMM.
I am literally a mess right now. I am in love with someone who isn't in love with me because I made a stupid decision 8 months ago and lost him completely. Now he won't talk to me at all. And I think I am pretty stupid settling for second best. The problem is I can't let go of the past and I keep going back even though I know it's not the best choice, or the worst. And I keep letting the good eggs go because I was always afraid I might not be as happy, not that I was happy though. Don't get me wrong. I love my boyfriend and never had intentions of cheating on him or something like that. It just happened. I didn't ask for all that to happen either nor did I ask to fall in love with someone whom my family would disagree me being with and whom constantly left me heartbroken thoughout the years. And I wasn't cheating. It was only when I broke up with my boyfriend, FOR AWHILE, that I fell in love with someone else, and I knew he was very much in love with me too. But I had to hurt him because I was too afraid to take a chance. Soo... Once again, I made a stupid decision to follow my mind and not my heart. It's too late now to be regretting or try to do something about it. It has been months. Oh well, I guess I had to learn that lesson. Thank god I still have my lovely family and friends to fall back on everytime.

Good night. I hope no one is reading this.

Love you bby,,
Sunday, January 17, 2010.

I miss the times when you'd hug me like a small keed.

I miss the times when you'd tickle me and I'd scream and laugh trying to break free.

I miss the times when you'd send me texts every morning and every night telling me you loved me.

And everything else.


Everything's changed. You'd get mad at the slightest things, you don't tickle me like you used to, and you don't want to bring me out anymore. Whatmore, you have your bike back now. Your no. 1 priority has changed.


You told me I reacted the same way when you first had your bike 2 years ago. But tell me, who likes being pushed second or third place out of a sudden?

But I know you love me, so I'll give you time to get accustomed to your new/old life. Hopefully, things between us stay the same. I might eventually give up, but leaving you is the last thing on my mind. because you're the only one who can make me feel happiest, and also who can break my heart the hardest.

yay! new skin!,
Sunday, October 18, 2009.
Hey people, because I couldn't sleep, I decided to change my blogskin! I'm sick and tired of the old one. hehe. I hope you like it. Start giving me comments will you? It's getting dusty in here!! :)

St James!,
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I gotta admit this, St James is by far the best club I've been to. No fights, no matreps. The best thing is that we get free drinks! All of us were wasted and we partied all night long. The music played are all up to date, unlike dbl o. And i thought dblO was cheap, but this is even cheaper! Besides the locker charge, I didn't even come out a single cent! It's the greatest I tell you. I'd definitely go there again. The only bad thing about it is the desperate guys trying to catch our attention. EEE GELI.

SCHOOL IS STARTING TOMORROW. Okay, I've enjoyed enough. Party mode turned off, study mode turn on! Turn on please, TURN ON! ok da, enough mental pushing. I know this will be a semangat seminit thing, but I really gotta start doing better next term.

Till then, good morning people!

P/s. Time check-9:33am. How the hell am I supposed to turn my sleeping clock back around. :(

P/P/s. I kinda miss someone. It's around this time of the year...... hhhm. Wadever. bye.

doubleO!,
Friday, October 02, 2009.
ME.
Chez & Wei Qing.

Me & Chez.

Chez, me & Qing2.

Me and Qing2.

Us again.

..........

My beloved.

Need I say who? :)

Otw to dblO.

A night to remember. So many things happened that night, both good and bad. I pity him for getting into a fight at DblO and the reason was because of me. Not only that, Chez and Wei Qing got hurt as well. I'm sorry you guys. I'm not gonna explain what actually happened that night, because I don't want this story to get out. But one thing for sure, I loveddd my make-up for that night. Thanks to Chez for putting on that eye make-up for me. I'm beginning to love wearing eye liner and I'm slowly learning how to apply eye make-up for myself. hehe! You guys should try it too! It's fun. Not too minah-ish, but more like kakak-ish! hahahaah! It's time I did something to make myself look more mature. My friend said I look like a 14 year old without make-up, and I don't know wether it's a compliment but nah!!! I wanna look my age, for now at least!

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Thursday, September 03, 2009.
Exams are over and I feel sooo relieved, not that I studied my ass off though. Haha. I'm afraid I'll be repeating some modules next term. Hopefully not. *praying hard.

I've gotten the greatest news ever yesterday. Bf called to tell me that he's decided to continue his studies. I almost jumped up and down! I've been pestering him for a very long time to pursue his studies and finally, he agreed. Alhamdulillah. I hope he sticks to his decision because I really wanna see him succeed. Not for me, but for himself.

Heading down to bugis tomorrow to cut my hair. Gosh, the guy said he wanted to cut my hair short. I am very afraid right now. I've neverrrr had short hair before and I bet I won't look good in it. :( For a change, maybe. I'm sick and tired of long hair anyway. haha.

I've gotta start updating pictures in this blog soon. It's too wordy already. haha take care people!

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Monday, August 17, 2009.
Rule #1
-Once a partner cheats, never forgive.
Rule #2
-If you don't love him, leave him.
Rule #3
-Don't revenge him, it will only make things worse.
Rule #4(most important)
-Don't cheat on your partner.

Wow, I feel like my words are contradicting my actions. haha
and btw, I said I wouldn't blog anymore. Haha. I'm sorry. I seriously have nothing better to do right now. :)

Happy 18th Shida. Love you! Looks like the only babies left are Wei Qing and me. tkperrrr. 4 months for you guys to mock me, and then HHMPH!!! haha.

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Monday, August 10, 2009.
I AM SO TIRED OF BLOGGING. MAYBE I HAVE GROWN OUT OF IT. I DON'T WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW ABOUT WHAT IS GOING ON IN MY LIFE ANYMORE AND I AM TOO LAZY TO UPLOAD PICTURES SO YEAH, WHAT IS A BLOG WITHOUT PICTURES RIGHT? I SUPPOSE I WILL ONLY UPDATE WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT SO DON'T BLAME ME. HAHA. I FINALLY REALISED THAT BLOGGING IS FOR SICK PEOPLE WITHOUT LIFE. THANK GOD I REALISED IT SOON ENOUGH. hahahahahahahaha!

Before anything else, all I wanna say is that I'M JOKING!!!!!!!! Please don't take it to heart.

But seriously, i'm sick and tired of blogging even though thr's been alot to blog about lately. Maybe it's because I want to have my own privacy for once. Im sorry people but I've gotta feeling this blog is gonna be dead soon. Until I feel lonely again, toodles! hehe. :)